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In loving memory of Dakota Joseph Janousek who will forever be 4
Life without Dakota
Life without Dakota is sad,lonely,and empty.It seems like the hurt will never go away.Some days are better then others.Sometimes I feel like I am all alone and nobody understands me or the hurt ,pain and emptyness I feel. At night when the house is quiet I hear him laughing. When I am sleeping I feel him touching me and I wake up thinking he is here and that this whole thing is just a horrible nightmare tears come to my eyes when I realize it's true and he realy is in Heaven.Even though I feel his presence around me all the time and everytime I hear or see something he liked it brings a smile to my face and then a emtyness comes in my heart. Sometimes I feel selfish because I want my precious boy back and want him all to myself but then I realize that its normal to feel like that every Parent who has lost a child just wants them back so they feel so empty and lonely!!!!!!
   

The Cord We are connected, My child and I, by An invisible cord Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord That connects us 'til birth This cord can't been seen By any on Earth.
This cord does it's work Right from the start. It binds us together Attached to my heart.
I know that it's there Though no one can see The invisible cord From my child to me.
The strength of this cord Is hard to describe. It can't be destroyed It can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord Man could create It withstands the test Can hold any weight.
And though you are gone, Though you're not here with me, The cord is still there But no one can see.
It pulls at my heart I am bruised...I am sore, But this cord is my lifeline As never before.
I am thankful that God Connects us this way A mother and child Death can't take it away!
Author Unknown
Don't Tell Me Please don't tell me you know how I feel, Unless you have lost your child too, Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal, Because that is just not true, Please don't tell me my son is in a better place, Though it is true, I want him here with me, Don't tell me someday I'll hear his voice, see his face, Beyond today I cannot see, Don?t tell me it is time to move on, Because I cannot, Don?t tell me to face the fact he is gone, Because denial is something I can't stop, Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had, Because I wanted more, Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad, I'll never be as I was before, What you can tell me is you will be here for me, That you will listen when I talk of my child, You can share with me my precious memories, You can even cry with me for a while, And please don't hesitate to say his name, Because it is something I long to hear everyday, Friend please realize that I can never be the same, But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.
SON
Early awakenings Expectations Of quickening Instead, tears Fill my eyes Swelling my womb with Emptiness. Son, you are missed. Son, you are loved. Yearning to hold you, Anger acquiesces To acceptance, You are with angels now.


Dakota loved to cuddle with his Mommy.About 8 every night he would bring me 2 of his favorite books for me to read to him and with his Blanket he would crawl up on my lap but he would always fall asleep in the middle of the 2nd book but if I would stop reading before I finished the book he would wake up and he was so cute trying to keep his eyes open till I finished reading him the story!!!!!!

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Dakota Janousek who was born in Nebraska on November 07, 2001 and passed away on October 30, 2006 at the age of 4. We will remember him forever.
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